(Source: yongexhip)
“I found someone who loved me like he was afraid to lose me and it was real. He made me laugh, smile and cry; and taught me how to see the goodness inside of me I had long forgotten existed. He listened to me talk for hours and told stories of his past and things that frightened him because he trusted me enough to know that I’d take his secret to my grave. He was right. It was so damn real and he loved me and I loved him back passionately; but it didn’t last cause he loved me, just not enough. From time to time it still pains me to think that years down the lane his face won’t be the one I wake up to. But darling, pain teaches you lessons, makes you stronger than ever before and I’ve learnt to find comfort in the lessons taught to me. It taught me things about love and truth but mostly myself; I am a deeply unhappy person who constantly needs someone to have my back when my thoughts turn into raging storms. No, it wasn’t his fault that he left after realising the intensity of darkness inside of me but it was his fault to fool me into thinking he was brave enough to help me go through with it. I was born with a sadness so overwhelming it frightens me too, sometimes. But what I do know is that there’s someone out there feeling the same ache in his bones as I do and when it gets harder to make it through the day I’ll tell my heart to be patient for I haven’t found him yet. When I finally find him I won’t ask him why he took so long to make our paths cross. Instead; I’ll hold him, plant soft kisses on his face and ever so softly whisper, “welcome home, babe.””— I’ll wait for as many years as it takes because I’m certain you’re out there. // Rida Aamina (17.9.17)
(Source: wnq-writers.com)
